Even though I rarely go on tumblr anymore, I wanted to say something important to me, regardless of who reads it. On my way to work today, I realized how quickly this year has gone by, and I evaluated my feelings towards the events of this year. Even though in things that have occurred in the past year have been undesirable in many aspects, I have positive feelings about it. For the first time in my life, I haven’t been depressed for an extensive period of time. It may seem like a silly thing to consider an accomplishment, but at the age of 17 I was diagnosed with dysthymia, which is a long-term, persistent depressive disorder. I have struggled with this disorder since I was approximately 11 years old, being brought on by a traumatic family occurrence. It has been about a year since I’ve had a very long spell of depression, although there were the inescapable short term depressions scattered along the way. I’m extremely happy with the way my mind has changed to suit the rest of the world. I say, no matter how shitty the world actually is, if you can put on technicolor glasses, you’ll be alright.
I’m setting myself up for failure, and I already know the result.